Suddenly felt like reading all my old blogs all the way from sec1 recently. Realised how much I changed these 6 years. All the memories came flooding in.

I didn’t intend to have such an effect when I first started blogging. I just wanted to pen something down, to ‘decorate’ my own personal space which is easily editable.

Stopped blogging in J2. Probably too busy with Photog and ‘A’s anyway. But now that I’m in NS I guess I have time to do some blogging. This time with no or fewer pictures since I no longer own a camera phone. Good writing practice anyway; the last time I wrote paragraphs was last year.

Writing is one thing I am so afraid of. For me, I think my sentences are disjointed and sometimes it’ll be an eyesore to read what I write. It’s one of the reasons why I wanted to go to the Arts stream in JC. To try and write better. Essential uni skill anyway. But when my A level results came out, I was pretty sad that I didn’t do well for my humans. I guess I just had to accept that I don’t write well enough. Still, I wanted to try for FASS. Was hesitant about it, but applied anyway since it’s the only NUS course I can apply. But I didn’t receive any reply from NUS. Probably got rejected. Got a placing from NTU finally in late April and I was soooo happy. Like, finally, no reply from the unis for a month and here’s a uni placing for me.

Before book-in this week, still no reply from the other unis and with the deadline of acceptance so near, I accepted NTU Mathematical Sciences with Minor in Finance. The next day, NUS sent me a letter offering me a place in FASS. WTF. I mean, I was already mentally prepared to go to NTU! And now, they’re giving me another option. Yea having options is a good thing, but the timing wasn’t great. Couldn’t sleep and couldn’t focus on lessons the next day.

Considered so many factors, called Daryl and Deena and asked them for advice, asked bunkmates too.

After giving it much thought, I guess I might stick with my NTU placing.

I remembered at one point in my JC life, when I wasn’t doing well, I still aimed for FASS because I wanted to prove to my teacher that getting even a bad grade for your arts subject still gets you to FASS. But anyway, proving a point shouldn’t be a reason.

Thought abt travelling distance, transport fares, hostel fees, etc. But my parents said just do whichever course you want more, no need to worry so much. Yeaa, in these moments, parents are awesome haha. Gotta appreciate them really.

So for now I’ll stick with NTU Mathematical Science. But whichever course I decide to enroll in in the end, I’ll go for an honours and try to apply for a teaching scholarship. Then I’ll have money for a DSLR! Yep, that’s my life mapped out so far.